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There is more than just us out there

12 Nov

Trevor

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Recently I experienced something all fathers would dread, at just a week shy of four months old, my son Trevor passed from SID’s (Sudden infant death syndrome). It was by far the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life, but it has given me an experience to learn from. I remember the day like it was yesterday racing to the hospital, watching the doctors and nurses desperately try to revive his small body. I remember touching his face after he had passed when we were able to hold him, brushing his cheek which always used to get him to smile, just hoping that he would wake up and this terrible nightmare would truly be just a nightmare. Sitting there holding him, just wishing I could his smiling face once more, his cute coo for just one more time.

The next days were a daze going through funeral preparations, coordinating and trying to grieve all at the same time was nearly impossible. The only thing that made it better was having such strong support from so many friends, family and co workers to whom I am deeply grateful to. It was ironic because you always want to do so much to help that person but more than anything just being there helped in such a strong way. A lot of my friends don’t deal with emotion well but just having them there spoke volumes and truly helped and for that I am grateful.

Throughout the experience I think the hardest part for me was carrying his small casket to the hearse and then to the grave site. Throughout the entire event I was most inspired by the ending, from the hearse to his final resting place. Let me tell you why, it took me sometime to realize this, because I had been in such a big daze I hadn’t noticed a lot of things. Anyways, I remember his grandfather and I pulling his casket from the back of the hearse, during which the sky was black and cloudy with almost no wind. As we walked to the small gravesite and placed him on the ground the wind suddenly picked up and shortly thereafter rain.

During the service everyone stood there almost to shocked that he was gone to even flinch. Cold, rain and leaves flying around his small casket from the strong wings created a certain feeling of turbulence only matched by the hearts of those standing around so somber. As the preacher finished his service we were asked once again to step forward and lower his casket. We began to lower his casket and as soon as it touched the ground, almost as quick as it had started raining, it stopped. The events were amazing, as soon as the casket touched the ground the sky had cleared and a warming ray of sunlight shown down on us and the wind had died completely.

It truly has shown me that God was there, that there was a purpose for all this. That despite the tears I had swelling in my eyes watching the grave be filled, there really was a greater purpose at work. Why? I don’t know, nor will I ever. That’s fine, but knowing that something bigger was there taking place and that God had been there to watch over my son was the biggest encouragement ever. It had taken sometime to realize this, after being in such a daze. I had realized all of the events but I just hadn’t put it together fully until somebody else mentioned how crazy it was. Some may rack it up to coincidence, but others know it was much more than just a coincidence.

my lovesWhile Trevor was alive he had inspired me to be so much more. He had made me want to make a life together as a family and a home. He had been able to really complete me, to fill a hole that I needed filled. I had wanted to become better, make more of myself so that he could be proud of me. Now that is gone that inspiration has only grown, it has made me want to complete my goals in his name and it has given me more inspiration and drive than I could ever ask for. His mother and I are still together and stronger than ever having gone through this experience together and in the future eventually plan on having another child.

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Biography

10 Mar

The beginning, I was born December 4th, 1984 in Seoul, South Korea. I lived there for all of about 3 months before leaving for the North Branch, MI, US. In case you were wondering and don’t laugh cause I have heard this before, yes I am asian. Don’t laugh, oh no, I hear this regularly comments like “Are you Asian?” or “Are you Indian?” I am sorry but I thought the eyes give it away lol. Some people…

Anyways once I was 3 months old I came to the North Branch, MI a small primarily agricultural town predominantly Caucasian. Okay really all Caucasian, yeah it was definitely interesting growing up there. I managed easily though, most of my friends being white were friends that I have had since I was in crib so none of them thought any different of me. As I am sure you are wondering, yes I was adopted by Caucasian parents. They were some of the best parents and don’t regret any aspect of my life at all.

School went well for me I always received good grades, I graduated from High school with a 3.7 grade point average. Maybe not the best but not the worst either… Throughout high school I saw inequalities in life in general and I wanted to change things. Naturally I felt that to become a lobbyist/ lawyer would be the best way to do that. So I skewed all my classes torwards that type of career taking, “You and the Law”, “Impromptu classes”, “Speech”, and “History” classes.

After graduating from high school, I decided to go to the University of Michigan to pursue my Law degree. As life has it things don’t always go the way they are planned. Eventually after working fulltime, going to school fulltime, and not sleeping fulltime I quite after the completion of my first year.

At that point I decided to join the United States Navy, lol, yeah, yeah I know. Its horrible, the people treat you like crap, its the military! Regardless though I had a good time and would recommend it to any single kid without any girlfriend or kids! The military is not the place to have a family trust me I have seen some shit!

But above all the bull that is our military it was a good experience. I mean who at 23 years old can say that they have been to UAE (United Arab Emirates), France, Italy, Spain, Cyprus, Jordan, Egypt, Costa Rica, Bahamas, Panama, Lebanon, and a few others that I am forgetting. Not only that though I met some amazing people, made lasting friendships, and gained life experience!

Above all else though I met a girl! Wow, I can hear all the thoughts going through your mind now lol. Yep, I got bit by the love bug, damn that bastard! No all jokes aside it was a good thing, I learned a lot about love sharing, being there for a person, be being that one! Which leads me to my next topic, after almost a year and a half of dating I went deployment in June of 2006. About two weeks in I receive a startling statement while checking in with my now ex-girlfriend. “Baby, I am pregnant, were going to have a baby!” Wow, definitely wasn’t planned but either way I wasn’t mad.

My son is now a year and half, I am a single dad. Its a lot of work yes but he makes every second of it worth it. Don’t get me wrong is one helion, just like I was. Brings to mind a saying, “What goes around comes around.” lol. Either way though through his crying for no reason, doing things he is not supposed to, doesn’t matter, because once I see him come up to me with those arms lifted up and I pick him up and hold him close and see that peaceful, innocent, and beautiful face nuzzled close on my shoulder ready to fall asleep nothing else matters. Not my job, friends or anything else because that is mine and his only! My son and me at a month old
He was born February 25th, 2007 weighing 6lbs. 8oz. and measuring 19in. long. His name is Kylar Ray Yoon Bird. Kylar I came up with, Ray was his moms idea my grandpa’s middle name and Yoon is the beginning of my Korean name Yoon Young Kim. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me! So ladies its sort of a package deal, sorry.

After completing my four year in the Navy on November 27th, 2007 I came back home to good ole North Branch, Michigan. Now I work at a small company called RLM Industries Inc., an investment casting company. I currently head the Advertising, Marketing and Sales portion of the company. I love what I do and despite having no degree and no prior experience I feel like I catch on quick and have a natural nack for this industry. I do a lot of graphic art design work using Adobe Illustrator CS3 awesome program, Analyze and develop marketing strategies, develop ideas and content for numerous print advertising materials and our website content, I also do procurement work still in the prestages though.

In addition to that I do contract work for two other companies. They will not be available for a while because I want to have permission to post content about them before proceeding but one is a log home builder and the other is a wedding photographer. I will be posting designs though that I have done for them with their contact and any identifiable content xxx out until I have gained written permission.

I try to stay busy, I like doing this so I have decided to pursue my Associates degree in Marketing management with a minor in communications or computer programming possibly.

Well I am new to this very interested in the aspects of blogging, its effectiveness, along with seeming to be like a good way to put my thoughts out there and just get some feedback. Here is a little about me:

What am I you ask? I am an Asian, a South Korean, a surfer, a snowboarder, a hockey player, a fighter, a wrestler, a racer, a tuner, a random work of art, which changes from day to day, I am solid in that I stick to my morals, but ever changing, I am funny but serious when I feel it is appropriate, random, smart, dumb, crazy, spontaneous, ready to live, to do in life what others will not or choose not to, inquisitive, curious, always ready for the beach, always on the go, never able to sit for more than 10 minutes, anxious, laid back, chill, non confrontational (except maybe when drunk), superior to most or I’d like to think, confident however many confuse it with arrogance or cockiness, I know who I am,… and need no one to tell me otherwise, always ready to meet new people, ready for the next lesson, afraid of failing but always taking something from it, one failure is just another life lesson in the endless entirety of life, but most of all a father to a son named Kylar Ray Yoon Bird born February 25th, 2007 at 9pm weighing 6lbs. 8oz. and 19in. long. The most beautiful baby boy I have ever seen. Life changing, crazy, a handful, but most of all great and never would give him up for anything. Talk all you want about me but take the words of my son out of your mouth. I play but don’t play when it comes to my son.

Here is contact information for me:
Email:
Work Email
Gmail

Websites:
RLM Industries Inc.
My Personal Blog
Myspace
Facebook

Updates on my son Kylar

4 Dec

So yeah took my son back home here this last Sunday. Its crazy he is about to be two here in a couple months but he is already acting like a punk little two year old. Its great though the other day Kylar was running around and kept smacking into shat and of course Grandma’s freaking out like, “Oh Kylar are you alright”. Of course he looks at her like, “Get off me, I’m a boy I can take it!” I love it though thats how I know hes my son, not afraid of getting hurt and well stubborn do it my way whether I find out the hard way or not its my way.

He’s learning so many new words, just the other day I taught him to say dude! He’s getting everything down really good, knows all his animals, colors among other things. Plus he is already almost potty trained although sometimes he says “Poddy”, after he already went. Don’t worry though we are working on it. He already eats everything on his own with silverware and sometimes with thee additional help of hand from time to time. Can’t fault him though he does good. I am surprised though he loves helping us out with anything were doing. He will always run up to me when I am putting my clothes away, washing dishes or something like that and be like, “Help, Help?!” I know that wasn’t something that I did a lot of when I was younger but I guess its good as long as it stays that way.

He doesn’t fight bed or should I say hasn’t been until like the last two nights for some reason he didn’t want to go to sleep. He puts all his toys away when time without even being asked! Shocked the F out of me. He absolutely loves trucks, tractors and cars so I got him one of the little mini jeeps that has the gas pedals for reverse and forward and a little engine compartment he can play in. I guess it only goes 2.5mph but we’ll see what dad can do to fix that lol. I was wanted to go fast and I know he does so well have to find some nitro or something like that for it. I almost gave it to him early just because I know how much he is going to love it. My friends mom got him a hockey net and two sticks so definitely gonna be working on teaching how to play some puck here next time he comes down.

Its funny though cause me and him have been wrestling, and I been teaching him some brazilian jujitsu moves. Course he doesn’t really understand it he just thinks we are wrestling but I love it anyways because he likes playing rough and isn’t afraid of smacking his head around a little. Course I don’t ever let him get hurt while we are wrestling so don’t think that I am torturing him its not like that. What else, hmmm….

Iono,…. I have high, high hopes for him I can see him going so far. He comprehends things so quickly and understands more than most the three year olds that are in my mothers daycare I take him to when I am at work. I am proud as hell of him and can’t wait to see how the next couple years pan out. Plus I can’t wait till he starts dating just gonna be breaking hearts for sure. Plus I’m buying his first car and we are going to make that thing a beast! So you know the girls will be all about it.

Can I get ahead?!

1 Dec

Yeah so the weekend went well, had fun and Thanksgiving was great. So I go to take my son home last night to Ohio from Michigan. I start driving everythings cool get three and a half hours into a four hour journey when my car breaks down over heated. Yeah, but guess this that isn’t the worst part, I had gotten this car no more than 6 days ago. I had a Chevy Lumina which putzed out me, it had 270,000 miles so I don’t blame the old girl. Anyways I went last wednesday and picked this car up and it was already acting by the sixth day?! So it breaks down on the 75 south in Lima, Ohio. I am sitting there waiting for babies momma to come and get my son since I wasn’t going to be able to make it all the way down to where she was at and then I finally get it started for all of five minutes just to drive just close enough to see the exit but never get off the highway. So then babies momma gets there with her boy toy and he has diagnostic equipment which reads out that it has a cylinder five and six misfire which is probably the ignition coil and then also a low voltage in the tempature wire which I am not sure what that is but either way the thing wouldn’t start again so I ended up having to call my parents at 6pm to come and get me. It took them four hours to get there meanwhile I am wandering aimlessly in Wal Mart just trying to find something to do. Not to mention that yesterday in Michigan it decided to blizzard. So my mom finally gets there at like 9:30pm and I have to drive the entire way back in this crappy blizzard with idiot drivers which took over four hours didn’t reach home until 2:30am and now I am back at work writing about this horrid ordeal. Oh and around 8:30pm my phones battery decided to die on me to so then I couldn’t even talk to friends. lol, crazy crazy!

Coming down to the wire!!!

30 Oct

Yeah so early voting has already started and voting is about to begin so don’t forget to get out there and let your voice be heard! So things been going pretty good for me, tomorrow is Halloween and dang its supposed to be off the hook!! Plus I get my son the 2nd of November, I miss his the little punk, lol. Kidding only kidding people. Got a new pic of him while he was in Ohio with his mother that she sent me.
Ky and his antlers

Work is good same old I guess, but I have an interview with another company called “Bankers Life and Casualty”, not sure what they are all about or whether I am really that interested but I at least check it out. Also got a job offer from Kellogs, so that could be interesting for the brand marketing position, I went ahead and sent my resume to them. Still working on getting some things into place for my company. After I get my company ready to go I will be working only part time at the job I am right now then I will be working my company as well. Ah starting school soon to, I am actually ready excited to go to school! Kind of ironic but I actually want to learn more about marketing plus I applied to a MTV for a marketing position. Unfortunately they said the only thing that was keeping me from having the position was that I didn’t have a degree. So off to school to get that degree! Two jobs, 3/4 school sounds so overwhelming to me but I am sure I can do it so no worries!

Updates to pages

10 Oct

So as you said before I decided to go with pages from now with any posts that do not fit on the first page. Below are links to all archived pages with categories to make things easier to view and more organized hope it helps.

Work
Entertainment
Morals & Ethics
My Interests & Hobbies
My Son

Politics
Quotes

Relationships

Some of the pages are pretty rough, right now I am just trying to get them into the right format and mapped correctly then I will finish working on the content. Thanks to everyone that does read them though I appreciate it!